The greatest fear in me isn't what you always thought of.
I know I'm a scaredy cat, I'm scared of ghost, or ghostly things and all. I'm scared of flying roaches and dog.
Still it isn't as much as my greatest fear, of losing you.
Even if I have to went inside of a room filled with many fierce dogs, flying roaches or even scary ghost, even if I had someone pointing a knife at me demanding for my life to be end. If I had to overcome these things to prevent from losing you, I will.
What if one day all those conversation we used to have in phone disappear?
Thats the few things I can never let go of, one of the things that always cheered me up, made my day, always made me smile and laughing like an idiot.
Those messages in phone that I'll cherish till the last moment of my life. It shows the sign of our times together, our happy times together.
Though sometimes it's on the end of the cliff, where our relation tend to end anytime, we still made through it together and overcome many things.
As long as we believe in us, believe in our relationship, hold onto it and I believe forever was not an impossible task at all.
What if I had to leave your side forever?
Believe me, though I'm not being able to be by your side, my soul will never gone. I will watch you from the other side.
Its a lie if I told you that you can let go of a girl that you're madly in love with, someone you always care of, that suddenly leave you forever. You can't really get the exact same girl in the future, but there's always someone better, that are meant only for you.
And please, if there's one girl that were there for you this whole time, from when you're a nobody and till you become a great successful man, please cherish her forever and have her by your side. Never let go of this girl. You're one lucky guy to have her as your girl.
I don't know about my lifeline, I don't know how far our fate will lead us to. I do believe we share the same dreams all along. But dear Kenn, if my life tends to end earlier than you, I hope you'll find another girl that are meant to you.
Even if you found a girl, even so, I hope that you'll always keep our conversation, because it's a sign that a girl have once appear in your life before, and have be a part of your life, that made your life more interesting since the day 1 you guys know each other. Forgive me to be that selfish, but these are the only wish I have after I'm gone.
Lately, I recalled me myself been operating like a broken phone. For this moment I feel not a slight bit of tired, a few minutes after, I found myself has been shut down just like a phone power being turned off😅
Somemore, my period cycle seems to be surprisingly extended. Usually, it tooks me 4-5days for each period to end. But now the number of days have grown twice. Means it tooks 8-10days for it to ends.
But what scared me wasn't this. Just sometimes my family told me I had been stop breathing for a short period for maybe 10 seconds or more. It wasn't the 1st time though, these things have been happening since I was young.
To be honest, I wonder what made it to be happening more often as days went pass by. Usually it would happen once in a while, and occur only once or twice on the same day. I guess maybe the stress have overpowered me?
Or maybe just I tire out my brain too much that its starting to malfunction?😂 Anyhow, my health isn't showing any sign of illness. Other than stop breathing and extended period cycle, I think I'm still fine😁
Breathe. You’re going to be okay. This pain you feel is going to pass. Maybe not this moment or today or tomorrow, but sometime soon. The hurt will fade. Don’t give up before things get better. You may be wounded, but you aren’t broken.
First of all, I'm not in the position to judge a dentist. Because I know nothing about it nor I know how they work😓 But hey, yesterday was really confusing for me.
Originally, Sis made an appointment with a dentist at 6.45pm. On 6.30pm, I fetch mum there. Well, I have to accompany her to consult the dentist as she's a scaredy cat by herself😅
As she's consulting the dentist, they have a casual chat. To be honest, I thought that was normal because somehow it could calm down a nervous patient I guess?😂
My mum wanted to remove the remaining of her broken tooth. But during the chat, the dentist however suggested that it's okay to made a dentures 1st.
Then mum ask the dentist, what about her broken tooth, doesn't it need to be removed 1st?😯 He say that it's fine. We can also decide to remove it at some cost. But I forgot the price.
Afterwards, he asked the nurse to make some mixture of "I don't know what is it called as"😂 it's yellow in colour and my mum says it tasted like chewing gum.
That thing can get the shape of my mum's teeth. After that, we went to pay for the consultation fees. And the dentures were estimated to be collected in 3days.
During our payment, there's another nurse asked whether if my mum have removed her broken tooth. Mum replied haven't. Then the nurse was in shock and replied: "That can't be. Youre making a denture without removing the broken tooth 1st. It might cause your wound to become an ulcer.
While the dentist we consult says it's fine, the nurse says it isn't😂 Furthermore, the nurse offered my mum to remove her broken tooth for free. Though my mum declined the offer because the dentist said we have to wait 3 months before my mum can wear her dentures again.
I can say having my mum without wearing her dentures is totally a nightmare to her..😂 3days was close enough to made her cry..😂
Overall, it wasn't that bad either.☺
Actually I'm accompanying my mum as she had a broken tooth, theres some of its remaining of the tooth inside. Its quite scary though. 😅
It sure tooks a lot of courage to visit a dentist. I'm proud of my mum...
