While everyone have everything brand new for their Chinese New Year, I'm having the worst Chinese New Year as long as I've lived. Who do you think will have their New Year celebrated with broken watch, broken phone, broken glasses, old cheap worn out shoes?
This is stupid, I've worked so hard last month to be expecting a better me on this brand new year, not having worse me year after year.
Can't my life be more peaceful?😒 Like seriously, nothing I planned to do slowly actually worked. All those endurance isn't paid off.
I'm so pissed off that I won't be able to have my phone fixed, won't have money to color my hair the way I wanted. I can't even laid my hands on the things that I wanted to buy.😭
Why I have to always be the one who's that outdated?😓 While everyone get to shop for clothes and getting their nails and hair done, I'll always be the one who have never done all this for myself.
I felt that I'm useless right now. I've stopped myself from food obsession, stop myself from buying things that I wanted. I'd rather back to my old self and having no self-controlling over everything, cause I find myself in peace, better than now.
Seriously, I would looked really bad this year, the worst look I'll ever have would be this year. No I'm not gonna celebrate this year, I'd be more happy to stay home, stay away from everyone.
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