Hmmm

You're an idiot. ← if I say these to someone, does it mean that I love him, but not saying 'I Love You' like a normal person? Lol, am I gonna tell him like that? I will feel sorry if I called that person I love as an idiot. ☞☜

Dinner

Waiting for Sister and her husband to be back from our hometown. Still an hour to go. She said she'll bring me dinner from hometown.

Finally

Those days were torturing, I can't land my hands on chocolate for like a month. =_=
I just got my salary, and my coughing were gone. *^_^* Just bought chocolates for myself. ~\(≧▽≦)/~

Raining

Heavy rain here, it gives me chill, even with all the air conditioner off, yet 2 layers of clothes won't let me be warmed.

I don't have my jacket with me, I washed them last night and still haven't dried yet. (>_<)

Yay~

I'll attend morning shift tomorrow, but I have to wake up early this Monday because I need to attend a course for 5 hours before attending my shift later on 2pm. Hope it's not too tiring.

Lunch

Have this lovely lunch with my sister and Uncle.

And a dessert with my sister.

I'll try

For these few days, I'm having a hard time to fall asleep╮(╯▽╰)╭ There's always something on my mind kept coming, that actually won't let me stop from thinking them. I guess I'll try be a good girl, close my eyes and try to sleep.*^_^*

Song of the day

No strings attached by N'sync

''Baby you're not the only one,
  You don't have to be afraid to fall in love,
  I know that you hurt in the past,
  But if you want it here's my heart,
  No strings attached''

That's it

He escaped again today, even though we tied him up. He managed to escaped from his collar and made his way out the door. The next time he got out, I would deny his existence. I won't chase after him already. I'll let him go. Just go anywhere you like okay? Since you really like the outside world, just go and never come back. This is the last time I'll chase after you. Just be a stray you used to be, I don't care anymore. You at home just being a harm to Baby and Money, they are hurt because of you, there you go again, you know really well why is Baby's cheek were seriously injured. You're the oldest in the house, don't make a fool out of yourself. 'Lucky', just spent the rest of your day alone okay? we don't want you to harm them anymore.

Yes

Omg💜

This MV is so cute😂

Seriously? ╭(°A°`)╮

Will there be anyone lol? (>_<)

Song of the day

Smile by Avril Lavigne

My childhood never lack of her songs, been her fans for 10years now.*^_^*
Her songs were simply amazing, her singing is great, I love evrything about her.

Nature

My sister used to flip through all my photo on phone. And she would say, I bought you this phone is to take good picture. Why on earth would these picture more than picture of human? 

 I said that I loved the nature so much that I don't they attracted me to take picture instead of human. Nature is interesting.

 I'm having a good time in every picture I snapped. You would rarely find a place like this if you didn't explore it yourself. Most of us just stuck in a surrounding that's full of skyscrapper.

 Isn't it better to have these view, if our daily life were full of noise from vehicle, road or building under construction.

 This place made me feel peaceful and calm. I'm free to take as many picture of it to my liking.

 My sister would say, go find a boyfriend soon, cause you're getting insane lol.

Just another Picture

That Puppy

Baby, so now sleeping on my leg is your daily routine aye? *^_^*

Oh, it's like that? ⊙▽⊙

Smile *^_^*

True

Sorry

I'm sorry for my behavior last night.

Song of the day

Welcome to my life by Simple Plan

I wonder

How would it be like to be your angel?

Worst Morning & A nice Dream?

Trust me, given my condition now, I would rather rest at home than chase after 'Lucky'. But when I heard from my sister that a Chinese complained that 'Lucky' bite her, I have to chase after him. And got lost in the same neighborhood, with lots of people scold about how am I not being responsible to have let my dog out without tying him up.

First of all, if I'm not being responsible, I will not chase after him, not when I have serious pain on my stomach, of course people can't see or know it's the time of my month, thus I forgive them.

Secondly, I'm resting on my bed, due to my pain. When suddenly, my sister went upstairs and tell me 'Lucky' escaped from home and said she wouldn't have call me and act she never have this dog if she did not receive the complain.

I've spent hours chasing after him, making sure that he won't cause any trouble to people. Owh, and I've heard lots of different language from people, all thanks to him. Though I can't understand a word from them, but with their fingers pointing at me and their tone in their words, I know they're mad at me.

Well, at least I'm saved for today because it's my day off. Owh, I can imagine tomorrow will be better. There will be people waiting in front of my house and will scold me even harder on my way to workplace. I wonder if they can follow me with their vehicle when I'm taking a shortcut to workplace.

Now I can't feel my leg, I bet they're in a deep sleep because I used them too much today.

But I'm thankful of something, I had a really nice dream last night, but before I could see the picture in my dream, I woke up when my sister told me about our escaped dog. Luh, my once in a lifetime chance have flown away just like that. =_=

It's okay, now I got the 1st letter written for someone.

Song of the day

God Must Have Spent a little more time on You by N'SYNC

Craving for Chocolate

It's the end of the month, I don't have extra money to buy chocolate. :-/ The whole day I'm enduring the monthly pain. (>_<) Haha, should I beg my sister to treat me some chocolate? =￣ω￣=

Anyway, it's stock counting day. and we're done around 10.30pm lol. and I'm grateful that my colleague finish the stock counting faster.

reached home at around 10.40pm as I'm running. ~\(≧▽≦)/~ now having supper. ╮(╯▽╰)╭

Weird Puppy

I was chilling on my bed, flipping through my online manga, when suddenly, I felt warmish, heavy and hairy stuff on my left foot. I did not wear my glasses that time, all I see is brown hairy creature on my foot :-o When I managed to put on my glasses back, I saw 'Baby' was sleeping on my foot (>_<) She sleep peacefully on my foot, so I did not wake her up and let her be. Hahaha, weird puppy to sleep on my foot.

I forgot that our puppy is sleeping at our room today ~\(≧▽≦)/~

Song of the day

Like I'm Gonna Lose You by Meghan Trainor and John Legend

Honestly, I've only found out this song recently when my colleague kept playing it when I'm working with her.

I've asked her several times for the title, but she refused to tell me, so I have to listen carefully to the lyrics and searched them word by word only to know the song title.

It's beautiful. The storyline, we never know what will happen in future, so if you have someone that you love, please tell them how you feel. Or else if it's too late, it's no use to regret.

How are you?

It's been 2months now. How are you in heaven? 〒_〒
There's no replacement for you. Because you're so special, your attitude, your characteristics, your Angelic face. We've lost you forever.

I can no longer hear your bark, no longer can I cuddle you each time I'm back from work. I missed your kissing, and I won't mind to chase after you if you ever escaped from home.

You have gone, my Happy. :'(  You always surprises us that we bursted into laughter. I can no longer be as happy as usual. All those memories of us, will be forever carved in my heart.

Code Red

It should have been next month, earliest by 7 or 8 of November for the next cycle to start. But somehow, it started earlier on today, which has been almost 2weeks earlier than the actual cycle. I guess it happens because I'm still having a flu and coughing. oh well, it's just 2 weeks early right? Beside that, I felt nothing unusual. So I guess it's fine maybe?

Song of the day

They don't know about us by One Direction

Just really like this songs, one of my fav music video out of 106 music videos on my phone.

(ฅ>ω<*ฅ)

If you ask me why my post have you in it, it's because you're interesting. Like a maze, I will have to guess who you really are, and where are you now?

I like the way how mysterious can someone be. The more you hide it, the more I wanna know. (>_<) If you ask me which mystery in the world that I wanna know, it's gonna be you. O(∩_∩)O

If you ask me why I wanna know about you, it's because you have catches my attention. Where on earth are you now by the way? (๑• . •๑)

I'm your fans.

My Research about the song that changed my thought

Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble

I've researched them on internet, only to find out that the heroine in this music video, appears to be his wife.

His heart were broken twice before he met with his now wife on 2008, for the 1st time at a party threw for him after his show in Bueno Aires. It's love on 1st sight.

If you read his lyrics carefully, the words 'kid' mentioned were no other than Luisana Lopilato, who were 12 years younger than him.

After they went together for sometimes, they finally get engaged and this MV was then released.

This songs really changed my thought about love, because it's really true that most of us tend to went through a few heartbreaking relationships before we could really met with the right one.

We just need to stay strong, cause we might fell hard for countless times. And believe me, there's one person waiting for you, on the other side. We just have to get back up and wait for the right time to finally met with that person.

And he/she would never gave up on waiting for you to appear in their life. It's called the love of your life.

Good one, my colleague. Good One =_=

Yesterday I'm frustrated because a colleague of mine kept calling me as bro. I've spent tons of times explaining to her, I ain't bro, and the obvious part is, I don't have any Adam's Apple near my throat area. Obvious enough, where later on she gave up on calling me as bro, but start calling me as 'bra'. =_=

And she said, if bro is for guy, then bra is for girl. T^T then I was like, 'hey that's weird', 'fine, call me a bro as you like' =_= But still I won't answer you, unless you call my name like usual.

I was wondering, that why would my middle name is 'Man' surname 'Chai' and I'm named 'Teng'. Where my full name is 'Chai Man Teng'. And I rarely told people my real name and goes with Rainie when I start my 1st job, and for several jobs.

And changed it to Stephie as I can't stand being mistook as my sister Rainy. When I started my job on Subway, which is my current permanent job till now, I'm shocked that they used our real name on name tag (>_<) At 1st they only now me as 'Teng', where recently we've changed to a new system which require our full name to be appeared in the system.

That's when they know my full name and start calling me as bro sometimes, because of my middle name 'Man'. Lucky for me that only my last name appear on receipt paper. 〒_〒

Song of the day

Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble

This song is really something*^_^*

The lyrics and all. I kept struggling and says that that's it. That's the last of it. I'm not gonna fall for anyone, never ever! I made so many excuses and lied, that I'm fine to be by myself.

Then I've start to think, 'Hey, if I'm all by myself, who's the one to share my every little joy with, if I'm alone?' or 'Who's gonna be there for me, when I'm sad, and need someone to lend his shoulder for me to cry?'

Like everything that happened, I've always have a friend to talk to. But I needed to know, that someday, they might get tired of it, or they've someone more important for them to take care of. And I realised, they can be the one who will be our good listener forever.

I guess maybe I haven't met with the right one? (>_<)
We'll see. If I do met with the right one, I'll give it a shot and will see how it goes (ฅ>ω<*ฅ)

Charity Fund & Event I've went to.

I'm so lucky to work at Subway. It's the place where I get recycle item such as boxes twice a week and old newspaper 6days a week. These items really help me and my Sister and her husband boost up our charity funds. I'm not kidding, if we were to get request for sending foods to certain place, we'll arrange a time where every member who involved can join. mostly on Sunday. Sometimes we'll have problem like not having enough funds for foods, we'll try our best to find alternative ways to made it on time.

To be honest, involving myself in charity event and do activities with elders really open up my mind. It made me understand that they needed someone care for them, someone who they can talk with.

I've went to 3 places so far. The 1st place that we went to, was Tong Sim Senior Citizens Care Centre, Jalan Lapangan Terbang Lama in KL, where delivered foods to an elders nursery home and dividing food from bed to bed and help with their needs, beside spent most of our time chatting with them (ฅ>ω<*ฅ)

The 2nd place is at Sungai Buloh Hospital, where the last batch of patient who suffered Leprosy disease. It's around 500+ patients there. At 1st we're celebrating Moon Cake Festival with them at a selected hall. We spent time singing and do various activity with them. Later on, we pushed a few trolley from ward to ward, asking each patient the food of their choice.

The 3rd place we went to were also Tong Sim Senior Citizens Care Centre, only their address were located at Kampung Baru Salak Selatan. We delivered our handmade noodle where later on, we cooked on the spot for them. And later on we divided soup noodle to everyone, and I get a special order to made the noodle without soup, where I have to figure out a recipe to evenly balanced the taste of soy sauce and sweet soy sauce in the noodle and some sesame oil to make it smells good, with some vege and all. It's the 1st time I'm doing this, and I'm glad it taste good when I tried it. and got great feedback from the one who ordered it. T^T

I'm so touched. I never let anybody tried my cooking before, other than my family, and one time, lunch for a few of my colleague when I'm working in an Italian Restaurant.

That's all I remember. I'm looking forward to volunteering myself for more charity event in future. It's so much fun and better than me doing nothing at home during my free time. *^_^*

Hahaha

I wonder if Mr. Horlick will use this method to find me
~\(≧▽≦)/~

I'm just saying→_→

Struggling with my Cough

I'm feeling better now, and almost recovered from my flu. The only thing now is that I'm struggling with my coughing. Doctor says it needed a long time before I will fully recovered from it.

My patience really pays off

Today I've receive message from him. My guess was correct. He's taking care of his friend. He's so nice isn't it? *^_^* I told you he deserved everything good in this world. Let us pray for his friend to get well soon okay? (>_<)

Vege Vege Vege, Water Water Water

Oh please have my coughing to recover soon, because I'm starting to hate vege. for this whole week I've been taking salad, little portion of rice, lots of boiled vege, and tons of warm and plain water. I'm starting to get sick by it. I can't even have sweet food or beverage. I missed drinking my fav beverage Horlicks(>_<) I'm working at Subway, made delicious bread, and yet I can't even have bread in my daily meal till I'm fully recovered T^T

Song of the day

Back at One by Brian McKnight

The lyrics has great meaning behind it.

It's more like someone who used to be a loner, that used to say that he will never fall for someone. And he met with a girl who enlightened his world. And he's sure that she's the one. Only time matters. The one that were created just for him. A fine girl that will make him happy, that are willing to sacrifice her everything just for him.

Patience Test

I did not receive any messages from him for like a day now. To be honest, I felt so lonely. All I can say is he's the only one that I felt like comfortable talking to. And I can't tell him how I really felt. You know, because he might think that I'm lying, because we never met →_→

I'm thinking of every single possibility that why he did not online for these 2days. Maybe he's so busy with something. Oh hey, I recalled something. It might be cause of he's taking care of his friend who suffer a certain diseases. Yes, it should be. Though I don't know who it was, please get well soon ya(>_<)

Oh well, I guess it's another patience test for me. All I have to do is wait for that time to come right? No matter how long I have to wait, I won't lost my patience. I'll now have my attention 100% on work. =￣ω￣=

Good Morning

I'm actually awake earlier just now at 8am. but I'm busy with my Twitter because I have more than 1k of new followers, and I've promised to follow everyone who followed me*^_^* Hey guys, thanks for following my twitter, but I did not update status as often as I'm updating this blog. I appreciate all those who have followed me, and to the 20+ followers that I haven't follow back, give me a few more hours as my unfollowers apps told me that my limit to follow people using the apps maxed for today. and needed 24hours till the next refresh. still a few more hours to go. wait ya (ฅ>ω<*ฅ)

Good night everyone

I'm starting to feel sleepy now. Maybe I should sleep. And praying that his internet connection will be back.

*grabbed my favorite jacket, put them on and try to sleep*

Song of the day & About Mr. Horlicks

Officially Missing You by Tamia

But I like it more for this song cover which is sang by Jayesslee.

And yes, I'm madly missing someone right now(ง •̀_•́)ง
His connection probably won't be back like normal anytime soon. It happens sometimes. I've always know that. But god, why am I like this?=_= Please have his connection be back soon, because I'm going insane soon╭(°A°`)╮

K, I know I made it sounded like he's my boyfriend or something. But I need to clear things up. He's a friend of mine, and I felt he's really important to me. I can consider him as a very special friend of mine. And my daily basis were to pray every good things to be happen on him. Because I can't bear to know that my friend were sad(ಥ_ಥ)

And I know that sometimes I really annoyed him, when I can't stop insulting myself. Though he said that I never annoyed him. And he would definitely says that I'm amazing and all, that I'm a strong girl that can stands on my own. He always cheer me up. I can feel that he really cared for me as a friend.

The one who always sees everything is amazing about me, the good and the bad. Nothing about me that he will say is lacking or bad. Seriously, he's the most amazing friend I've ever met. And I would say I won't be able to be mad at him even for a split seconds.

I would be praying each day that he'll finally met with someone who's as amazing as him, that's gonna made him happy, who will always be there for him, who will care for him. A proper girl who were perfectly created by god, just for him. He's definitely gonna met with this girl someday. Because he's a real man. Only time matters.

And there are times that I made him apologizing to me, even though he has done nothing wrong to me. It made me felt guilty towards him, and ended up I'm apologizing to him as well. I'm really sorry to have made him felt guilty towards me, for me being weird and all. When it's all my problem that have stressed me out, and I'm acting weird the whole day. He never gets mad at me for being weird.

Hey, you. Yeah, you. You know the one I'm writing now is you. Though there might be least a chance that you'll saw this post of mine. A billion thanks to you to be such an amazing friend, who always be there for me and cheer me up. Though we never met each other. You deserve every good things in this world, and I really meant it.

My days never been lacking of joy ever since we're friends. Thanks for being a such a great friend for a plain girl like me.*^_^* You're simply awesome. Please never deny that fact about you. Everything about you is amazing. Your personality, your characteristics. I can't really find anything lacking about you.

This post is dedicated to the most amazing friend I've ever known, Mr. Horlicks aka Mr. Fine Guy.

Sigh

His connection probably acting up again T^T
Why am I feeling this? I want to talk to him. oh please, let him have his good connection back(ಥ_ಥ) Luh, I felt so empty right now=_= I guess I can't bear not texting him even just for awhile→_→

Yay~\(≧▽≦)/~

My weight almost reached the ideal BMI~\(≧▽≦)/~ 59kg (ฅ>ω<*ฅ) a few more kg to go *^_^*

Alright

Here I am, consulting a doctor again. my flu almost fully recovered. Now gonna do something about my coughing.

Frustrated

Due to my condition now, I can't have any of my favorite foods and drinks. I can't have rice, can't have fried food, toast, sweet food. I can't drink cool or iced beverage, sweet beverage, just warm water till my flu is gone. Damn, I missed drinking Horlicks daily for my breakfast and sometimes on lunch. Now all I'm having is Salads and warm water (ಥ_ಥ)

My Voice is back

Yes it is, but only the fact that it does not completely come back, the volume of my voice seems to be limited and stuck on the low volume╭(°A°`)╮ What do I do? Let's just pray that warm water can help me→_→

Song of the day

Breathless by Shayne Ward

I love his music video, and the song has pretty lyrics <3

About my blog

If you ever saw a blog post by me, which are extremely long, it was because I'm feeling stress, and it's the only way to release it by converting them to words, to avoid any argument. I'm no good when it comes to argument. The longer the blog post, the greater there are the stress in me -.-

I'm so mad, but not on tomorrow.

is not like I'm mad directly to her, today we're discussing about our shift tomorrow, because there's a confusing change of the shift we supposed to attend and our day off. The story goes like this at 1st. As simple as ABC, my off day which is supposed to be tomorrow, and there's a colleague have something important to do tomorrow. We both agree to replace my off day to this Sunday instead, which is supposed to be her day off. And I'm going to attend her shift which is morning shift. and I recalled hearing another colleague(A) says that she wants to replace her working hour by deducting her OT tomorrow and attending morning shift. Here's the problem. I don't know if she's changing her evening shift with the one(B) who's supposed to work in morning with me, or change with me. all I recalled is she wants to attend morning shift tomorrow. And today, it's 'A' off day. The confusing 'B' and I have double confirm about our shift tomorrow with the one who's in charge of our schedule, whether me or 'B' gonna attend which shift. me and 'B' both agree that I'm gonna attend morning since today I'm morning shift, which is easier because I went home early and have enough time to rest. which means 'B' is going to attend evening shift instead of the actual scheduled morning shift for her. Later on tonight, 'A' messaged me and asked whether tomorrow she will be working morning shift with 'B', I've replied tomorrow I'm gonna be the same shift with her, and 'B' is evening shift.
'A' suddenly says, I've changed my shift with you that day, why did you changed the shift again with 'B' who's supposed to attend morning shift? and continued 'if you really wants to work in the morning tomorrow, why you didn't let me know earlier that day when we're changing shift? Bam, I'm speechless now. So now I know what she mean when she's telling me the other day that she wanna attend morning on this Thursday which is tomorrow, she wanna change shift with me, and I'm supposed to be working evening shift tomorrow. Seriously, why can't she be specific with me when she says that she wanna attend morning tomorrow, and gonna change the shift with me? It's not like I'm going to say no, unless I really have something important to do on certain day. Other than that I have no reason to say no when my colleague really have something important to do or settle, it's fine we can change shift. Just please be specific(๑• . •๑) And tomorrow I'm not gonna spat out a single word. Even to customer, I'll minimize the usual speech, as my voice is gone because of my heavy flu. I can hardly even let out a single voice. Just word on blog that's gonna help me to let out what's inside my mind right now. And as usual, all that happened today, my madness and all, I'm not gonna bring it to tomorrow. Because tomorrow is a new start. Anything happened, will be forever a history. I'm not gonna let a history to drag me down. Not in a million years. We're people, and people were born to be forgiving anyone they're mad of, just time matters. And for me, I won't bring it to tomorrow as a reason of an argument. That's just plain stupid if I do so. ╭(°A°`)╮

Bleeding Nose

I'm wearing a face mask today due to my heavy flu, when suddenly a kid freaked out to see that my mask has some blood on it, and she told me. That's when I realized my nose is bleeding.=_=  I thought just a runny nose, did not realized that it was bleeding(๑• . •๑)

Just hope history won't be repeating

The last time I have flu was 3years ago where it lasts for around 3months. I guess this time might be same like last time. Just hope that it didn't affect my period like last time when I sick. It doesn't feel good to have 3 times of period in one month for 3months straight. I'm like a walking zombie→_→

Meal Skipping

I don't think I'm gonna have any breakfast today, I'm not hungry nor I'm full, just no appetite to take any food.

Luh, Forget it

I'm not gonna consult a doctor today=_=

Good Morning

After a few days of night shift, finally, today I'm attending morning shift, I guess I'm gonna consult a doctor again regarding my endless flu. well, that's after my shift ends probably by 5pm. I just have to be at the clinic before they closed at 9pm.

Let me be a Bad Girl for once

it's the 6th day now that I'm not yet recover from my flu. I ran out of med. Oh well, doctor forbid me to drink cold or iced beverage, forbid me to had something sweets. I'm telling you I've followed the advised and finished my med. But my flu isn't showing any sign of disappearance. so now I'm having half of a small bottle of Belgium beer with my sister, with ice(ง •̀_•́)ง

Song of the day

Failure in Disguise by Jayesslee

I love every single lyrics in this song.

Luh, it's hard to maintain my BMI

How am I supposed to do so if, almost every night have leftover for me, each time having my meals there might be min extra half portion from someone else? Now I'm having the leftover rice from home and Chicken Teriyaki Salad from Subway. guess I'll just stop taking my employee meal from Subway and take whatever is there for me. The one and only way to maintain my BMI I guess?

That Power I wanted

please let me have the power to erase my existence in everyone's memory.

Things to do before I'm gone

I'm pretty much will annoy everyone I know, so they won't be sad that I'm leaving this world. Starting by the one I love and care the most. Call me cruel, that's what I'm gonna do. I'm not strong enough to leave everyone who care for me being sad after I'm gone.

Plumbing issue

I can't remember how long our sink went out of service, and the plumber who is appointed isn't showing any sign of presence. I'm actually tired that there are certain people who saw the sign and still choose to ignore it.

5th day

it's the 5th day and my flu doesn't seems to be going away anytime soon. and I've ran out of med that the doctor gave me last Saturday. It doesn't feel as worst as the 2nd day of flu though. I wonder if I should consult a doctor again or just wait for a few days and see if it's going to recover by itself.

Tuesday

Usually people be like Monday Blue.
But for me every Tuesday is the most exhausting day for the whole week.

Because it's stock counting day. *sigh* Every little things need to be count.

Song of the day

Breakeven by The Script

This song pretty much describe my feeling right now😞