Welcome July?

😂 a lot of things has been going on lately. The only thing I can do is to face it, even if I doesn't want to. For these 2 branch, altogether have 4 people resigned. We're really short on staff to work.

For these month, believe it or not, shall be the hardest month yet to conquer. The highest record for my overtime as long as I've been working, this shall be the highest so far. Just by looking at the schedule was a complete headache.

30+ hours overtime for a month were already a working hell. Well I guess it's a new challenge for me. This month, I have to work at least 42hours of overtime.

Thank you very much. Looking at the brighter side, actually it's good for me because I can save more money for myself. Though I wasn't really sure if I can stand it.

Dear Kenn

The greatest fear in me isn't what you always thought of.

I know I'm a scaredy cat, I'm scared of ghost, or ghostly things and all. I'm scared of flying roaches and dog.

Still it isn't as much as my greatest fear, of losing you.

Even if I have to went inside of a room filled with many fierce dogs, flying roaches or even scary ghost, even if I had someone pointing a knife at me demanding for my life to be end. If I had to overcome these things to prevent from losing you, I will.

What if...

What if one day all those conversation we used to have in phone disappear?

Thats the few things I can never let go of, one of the things that always cheered me up, made my day, always made me smile and laughing like an idiot.

Those messages in phone that I'll cherish till the last moment of my life. It shows the sign of our times together, our happy times together.

Though sometimes it's on the end of the cliff, where our relation tend to end anytime, we still made through it together and overcome many things.

As long as we believe in us, believe in our relationship, hold onto it and I believe forever was not an impossible task at all.

What if I had to leave your side forever?

Believe me, though I'm not being able to be by your side, my soul will never gone. I will watch you from the other side.

Its a lie if I told you that you can let go of a girl that you're madly in love with, someone you always care of, that suddenly leave you forever. You can't really get the exact same girl in the future, but there's always someone better, that are meant only for you.

And please, if there's one girl that were there for you this whole time, from when you're a nobody and till you become a great successful man, please cherish her forever and have her by your side. Never let go of this girl. You're one lucky guy to have her as your girl.

I don't know about my lifeline, I don't know how far our fate will lead us to. I do believe we share the same dreams all along. But dear Kenn, if my life tends to end earlier than you, I hope you'll find another girl that are meant to you.

Even if you found a girl, even so, I hope that you'll always keep our conversation, because it's a sign that a girl have once appear in your life before, and have be a part of your life, that made your life more interesting since the day 1 you guys know each other. Forgive me to be that selfish, but these are the only wish I have after I'm gone.

I wonder

Lately, I recalled me myself been operating like a broken phone. For this moment I feel not a slight bit of tired, a few minutes after, I found myself has been shut down just like a phone power being turned off😅

Somemore, my period cycle seems to be surprisingly extended. Usually, it tooks me 4-5days for each period to end. But now the number of days have grown twice. Means it tooks 8-10days for it to ends.

But what scared me wasn't this. Just sometimes my family told me I had been stop breathing for a short period for maybe 10 seconds or more. It wasn't the 1st time though, these things have been happening since I was young.

To be honest, I wonder what made it to be happening more often as days went pass by. Usually it would happen once in a while, and occur only once or twice on the same day. I guess maybe the stress have overpowered me?

Or maybe just I tire out my brain too much that its starting to malfunction?😂 Anyhow, my health isn't showing any sign of illness. Other than stop breathing and extended period cycle, I think I'm still fine😁

Reposted from a friend, for a very special friend.

Breathe. You’re going to be okay. This pain you feel is going to pass. Maybe not this moment or today or tomorrow, but sometime soon. The hurt will fade. Don’t give up before things get better. You may be wounded, but you aren’t broken.

Confusing

First of all, I'm not in the position to judge a dentist. Because I know nothing about it nor I know how they work😓 But hey, yesterday was really confusing for me.

Originally, Sis made an appointment with a dentist at 6.45pm. On 6.30pm, I fetch mum there. Well, I have to accompany her to consult the dentist as she's a scaredy cat by herself😅

As she's consulting the dentist, they have a casual chat. To be honest, I thought that was normal because somehow it could calm down a nervous patient I guess?😂

My mum wanted to remove the remaining of her broken tooth. But during the chat, the dentist however suggested that it's okay to made a dentures 1st.

Then mum ask the dentist, what about her broken tooth, doesn't it need to be removed 1st?😯 He say that it's fine. We can also decide to remove it at some cost. But I forgot the price.

Afterwards, he asked the nurse to make some mixture of "I don't know what is it called as"😂 it's yellow in colour and my mum says it tasted like chewing gum.

That thing can get the shape of my mum's teeth. After that, we went to pay for the consultation fees. And the dentures were estimated to be collected in 3days.

During our payment, there's another nurse asked whether if my mum have removed her broken tooth. Mum replied haven't. Then the nurse was in shock and replied: "That can't be. Youre making a denture without removing the broken tooth 1st. It might cause your wound to become an ulcer.

While the dentist we consult says it's fine, the nurse says it isn't😂 Furthermore, the nurse offered my mum to remove her broken tooth for free. Though my mum declined the offer because the dentist said we have to wait 3 months before my mum can wear her dentures again.

I can say having my mum without wearing her dentures is totally a nightmare to her..😂 3days was close enough to made her cry..😂

Overall, it wasn't that bad either.☺

1st time visiting a dentist

Actually I'm accompanying my mum as she had a broken tooth, theres some of its remaining of the tooth inside. Its quite scary though. 😅

It sure tooks a lot of courage to visit a dentist. I'm proud of my mum...

Birthday Celebration~

😂Yesterday, my fellow colleagues celebrated my birthday at Subway. Though it's a week early, but I'm so touched. It was the 1st time ever I celebrate my birthday on my workplace with colleagues. And I'm sure that this year it will be the most memorable year for me.

My Sister on the Newspaper

Today, my sis post on her Facebook where she appeared on the newspaper, about her being involved in giving out food for homeless people every Saturday.

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I'm gonna disappear from everyone sight. Soon enough😤 dont ever involved me with your stuff again. And please deal with your own stuff properly, dont simply appear in front of me and saying "oh, I thought I already made it clear the other day". If you really made it clear the other day, there wont blur people who cant even remember a single word you've said to him.

Happy, yet not really...

I'm happy because grandma already discharged from hospital, though the Med expenses were quite an amount, it's fine really, as long as she's healthy.

The thing is, I'm not so happy because my sis should really stop thinking of me as a younger sister should accompany her at all time.

Remember that time when grandma in hospital, it's Sunday. After work I've already rushed there with help of my bf. Hearing uncle says about her condition are stable, and it's okay for me to join a family dinner at Dengkil, which I originally turn down when I know grandma in haspital.

We went there by 2cars, total of 9people. It's fine at 1st. When the dinner started for a while, I hgot a call from uncle, he said if there's a way to contact sister, because he can't reach her by phone. He asked if I can make it to the hospital since I'm quite far away. I did try to find any possible way.

I can't find any taxi on that area, dinner is going on and I can't really walk away. The dinner ended late at 10pm, it was way passed the visiting hour. I've reached home only after 11pm.

Still the next day, I called uncle to say sorry that I can't made my way there that day. And promised to visit grandma on the same day. Apology accepted.

Till the day grandma discharged, things keep happening. It's all because of money problem. Sis should just stop starting an argument about this.

Like seriously, I've earned quite an amount last month, decided to save 700 in bank. Yet we got a message from uncle regarding the med expenses for the 1st month were quite high, 950. I wants to forget my saving for this month and help uncle, but stopped by my sis, with the reasons that I already burdened by our insurance fees each month, she doesn't want me to took full responsibility of grandma med expenses.

Then she replied to uncle that we can only help 150 each person. Total of 300 from us. I'm thinking I can still save 550. Still you know what happened then? I was thinking I have to buy stuff I needed in Tesco.

So me and sis went to Tesco to buy my stuff. Well I didn't get the chance to buy my stuff, as my sis saw a huge promotion of spaghetti and sauces for her stall. Just only these 2items she bought in bulk, cost us 800++ in total.

Tell you what, she have only 300++ cash on hand, the rest she was going to pay by debit card. Her debit card have problem, can't be used on the machine, so I have to use my atm card to cover for the 500++ bill.

There are times when I'm spending with my bf, she keeps on over and over again, telling me that she dislike that now I'm rarely spend time with her anymore. She missed how we used to shop together for her stall, and how I used to always help her at her stall.

I only help her at stall when I'm free. I did not demand anything in return from her. Still she thinks that I'm her slave that I should help her whenever I'm free. I can't believe she forget to bring stuff to her stall everytime when my day off, when I'm resting. She really have to know, I don't have my own vehicle when she already used it when she opened this western stall.

My only way to get there is by walking. Still she's asking me to bring tons of stuff eventhough she knows that I'm walking. I'm stronger than her, but I'm still a girl. It's quite a distance from our house. Anything could have happened on my way to her stall.

I can't imagine, if one day my life had to come to an end, she'll be able to handle that. Can she really move on if I'm gone? She can't even stand it that I spent less time with her now.

She told me once that she can't stand to see me alone, and I've always stay at home without spending time with any friends. She introduced me to my now bf, we became friends at 1st.

She kept saying that she regrets this guy would have turn out to be my bf now.

It's tiring that we have to argue for the same thing over and over again. But I'm still glad that Kenn is understanding of this situation and never give up on me even when he have to went through hard times because of my problem.

Thanks to the love of my life. No matter what happens, I'll try my best to be there for you. Thanks for everything you do for me. You never demand anything from me.

You told me that last time you always gave up on me because of trust issues, now that I won't be keeping anymore secrets from you. Love you always❤

Test from God

Now I know, God sometimes might test us with our life. It's not always every chapter in our life were 'happy'. While I'm happy with my love life recently, I've got a call from my Uncle. I was told that grandmom were admitted to Sg. Buloh hospital...

I was lying if I say that I'm fine when I heard that... But I know it's another test from God, because God won't give us a test that cross our limit or abillity.

I hope that grandmom will recover soon as her condition now were critical.....

What I really wanted

I'm not seeking for wealth or appearance. Nor I'm seeking for a perfect man.

After all, if you choose to start a life chapter with someone, choose wisely. Don't use their weakpoint as an excuses for an argument.

Yup. I just wanted someone who I can become better with together.

Please never get bored of me nor play with my hearts lol. I'm not as strong as I look.

True

Just a random article based on a true story.

50 years ago, when he proposed to her,
he said to her: trust me

40 years ago, when she gave birth to their 1st child,
he said: sorry to have you went through this pain...

20 years ago, when their child gets married,
he said: you still have me...

Last year, when he knows that his wife condition has worsened,
he repeatedly says: I'm here with you...

Today, his wife has passed away...
Unable to hold back his tears, kissing her cheek for one last time
he said: wait for me in another world...

For his whole life, he has never said 'I love you' to his wife.. Even so, his love for her were never gone.

A true love is shown through action, not by words.
It is better to love her with all your heart content, and show her your love through your actions, than saying 'I love you' to her million times.

That feeling

That feeling you have when you have to move to somewhere else, but you don't wanna leave this place you're comfortable with. It's the 6th year living in Kepong, and never would have crossed my mind that I'm going to be move to a new place so soon.

To be honest, I don't really wanna left my job and everyone I know in Subway. Because it has been my daily task and they're a part of my daily life.

I don't even dare to hand out my resignation letter. And there are people that I wanted to but won't have a chance to meet.

Hey, I met someone that I kinda like, but I'm gonna back out like how I've used to. Because I know love in different cities were likely hard for me, just how I've been through the previous relationship.

I'm tired of saying it's part of my life to be moving from 1 place to another. I know that I'm dumb when it comes to recognizing a new place. And the worst part is that I have to say farewell to my friends.......

Haha 😂 This is totally stupid😒

While everyone have everything brand new for their Chinese New Year, I'm having the worst Chinese New Year as long as I've lived. Who do you think will have their New Year celebrated with broken watch, broken phone, broken glasses, old cheap worn out shoes?

This is stupid, I've worked so hard last month to be expecting a better me on this brand new year, not having worse me year after year.

Can't my life be more peaceful?😒 Like seriously, nothing I planned to do slowly actually worked. All those endurance isn't paid off.

I'm so pissed off that I won't be able to have my phone fixed, won't have money to color my hair the way I wanted. I can't even laid my hands on the things that I wanted to buy.😭

Why I have to always be the one who's that outdated?😓 While everyone get to shop for clothes and getting their nails and hair done, I'll always be the one who have never done all this for myself.

I felt that I'm useless right now. I've stopped myself from food obsession, stop myself from buying things that I wanted. I'd rather back to my old self and having no self-controlling over everything, cause I find myself in peace, better than now.

Seriously, I would looked really bad this year, the worst look I'll ever have would be this year. No I'm not gonna celebrate this year, I'd be more happy to stay home, stay away from everyone.

Totally

Somehow, it reminded me of someone and it hurts😞

Dumbest thing to do

It's raining outside, it's cool😂 but I'm having this cool snack

Finally😝

Finally finished watching this movie😂 It's time to sleep😂🔫

Ahahahahaha

Funny to know, this time I have a different version of him in my dream. And I get to see his picture and his mom and little sis picture too😂 And his name last name became Heng, last time he's Hendouman in my dream😂😂😂 ok bye.