Back at One by Brian McKnight
The lyrics has great meaning behind it.
It's more like someone who used to be a loner, that used to say that he will never fall for someone. And he met with a girl who enlightened his world. And he's sure that she's the one. Only time matters. The one that were created just for him. A fine girl that will make him happy, that are willing to sacrifice her everything just for him.
I did not receive any messages from him for like a day now. To be honest, I felt so lonely. All I can say is he's the only one that I felt like comfortable talking to. And I can't tell him how I really felt. You know, because he might think that I'm lying, because we never met →_→
I'm thinking of every single possibility that why he did not online for these 2days. Maybe he's so busy with something. Oh hey, I recalled something. It might be cause of he's taking care of his friend who suffer a certain diseases. Yes, it should be. Though I don't know who it was, please get well soon ya(>_<)
Oh well, I guess it's another patience test for me. All I have to do is wait for that time to come right? No matter how long I have to wait, I won't lost my patience. I'll now have my attention 100% on work. =￣ω￣=
I'm actually awake earlier just now at 8am. but I'm busy with my Twitter because I have more than 1k of new followers, and I've promised to follow everyone who followed me*^_^* Hey guys, thanks for following my twitter, but I did not update status as often as I'm updating this blog. I appreciate all those who have followed me, and to the 20+ followers that I haven't follow back, give me a few more hours as my unfollowers apps told me that my limit to follow people using the apps maxed for today. and needed 24hours till the next refresh. still a few more hours to go. wait ya (ฅ>ω<*ฅ)
I'm starting to feel sleepy now. Maybe I should sleep. And praying that his internet connection will be back.
*grabbed my favorite jacket, put them on and try to sleep*
Officially Missing You by Tamia
But I like it more for this song cover which is sang by Jayesslee.
And yes, I'm madly missing someone right now(ง •̀_•́)ง
His connection probably won't be back like normal anytime soon. It happens sometimes. I've always know that. But god, why am I like this?=_= Please have his connection be back soon, because I'm going insane soon╭(°A°`)╮
K, I know I made it sounded like he's my boyfriend or something. But I need to clear things up. He's a friend of mine, and I felt he's really important to me. I can consider him as a very special friend of mine. And my daily basis were to pray every good things to be happen on him. Because I can't bear to know that my friend were sad(ಥ_ಥ)
And I know that sometimes I really annoyed him, when I can't stop insulting myself. Though he said that I never annoyed him. And he would definitely says that I'm amazing and all, that I'm a strong girl that can stands on my own. He always cheer me up. I can feel that he really cared for me as a friend.
The one who always sees everything is amazing about me, the good and the bad. Nothing about me that he will say is lacking or bad. Seriously, he's the most amazing friend I've ever met. And I would say I won't be able to be mad at him even for a split seconds.
I would be praying each day that he'll finally met with someone who's as amazing as him, that's gonna made him happy, who will always be there for him, who will care for him. A proper girl who were perfectly created by god, just for him. He's definitely gonna met with this girl someday. Because he's a real man. Only time matters.
And there are times that I made him apologizing to me, even though he has done nothing wrong to me. It made me felt guilty towards him, and ended up I'm apologizing to him as well. I'm really sorry to have made him felt guilty towards me, for me being weird and all. When it's all my problem that have stressed me out, and I'm acting weird the whole day. He never gets mad at me for being weird.
Hey, you. Yeah, you. You know the one I'm writing now is you. Though there might be least a chance that you'll saw this post of mine. A billion thanks to you to be such an amazing friend, who always be there for me and cheer me up. Though we never met each other. You deserve every good things in this world, and I really meant it.
My days never been lacking of joy ever since we're friends. Thanks for being a such a great friend for a plain girl like me.*^_^* You're simply awesome. Please never deny that fact about you. Everything about you is amazing. Your personality, your characteristics. I can't really find anything lacking about you.
This post is dedicated to the most amazing friend I've ever known, Mr. Horlicks aka Mr. Fine Guy.
His connection probably acting up again T^T
Why am I feeling this? I want to talk to him. oh please, let him have his good connection back(ಥ_ಥ) Luh, I felt so empty right now=_= I guess I can't bear not texting him even just for awhile→_→
My weight almost reached the ideal BMI~\(≧▽≦)/~ 59kg (ฅ>ω<*ฅ) a few more kg to go *^_^*
Here I am, consulting a doctor again. my flu almost fully recovered. Now gonna do something about my coughing.
Due to my condition now, I can't have any of my favorite foods and drinks. I can't have rice, can't have fried food, toast, sweet food. I can't drink cool or iced beverage, sweet beverage, just warm water till my flu is gone. Damn, I missed drinking Horlicks daily for my breakfast and sometimes on lunch. Now all I'm having is Salads and warm water (ಥ_ಥ)
Yes it is, but only the fact that it does not completely come back, the volume of my voice seems to be limited and stuck on the low volume╭(°A°`)╮ What do I do? Let's just pray that warm water can help me→_→
If you ever saw a blog post by me, which are extremely long, it was because I'm feeling stress, and it's the only way to release it by converting them to words, to avoid any argument. I'm no good when it comes to argument. The longer the blog post, the greater there are the stress in me -.-
is not like I'm mad directly to her, today we're discussing about our shift tomorrow, because there's a confusing change of the shift we supposed to attend and our day off. The story goes like this at 1st. As simple as ABC, my off day which is supposed to be tomorrow, and there's a colleague have something important to do tomorrow. We both agree to replace my off day to this Sunday instead, which is supposed to be her day off. And I'm going to attend her shift which is morning shift. and I recalled hearing another colleague(A) says that she wants to replace her working hour by deducting her OT tomorrow and attending morning shift. Here's the problem. I don't know if she's changing her evening shift with the one(B) who's supposed to work in morning with me, or change with me. all I recalled is she wants to attend morning shift tomorrow. And today, it's 'A' off day. The confusing 'B' and I have double confirm about our shift tomorrow with the one who's in charge of our schedule, whether me or 'B' gonna attend which shift. me and 'B' both agree that I'm gonna attend morning since today I'm morning shift, which is easier because I went home early and have enough time to rest. which means 'B' is going to attend evening shift instead of the actual scheduled morning shift for her. Later on tonight, 'A' messaged me and asked whether tomorrow she will be working morning shift with 'B', I've replied tomorrow I'm gonna be the same shift with her, and 'B' is evening shift.
'A' suddenly says, I've changed my shift with you that day, why did you changed the shift again with 'B' who's supposed to attend morning shift? and continued 'if you really wants to work in the morning tomorrow, why you didn't let me know earlier that day when we're changing shift? Bam, I'm speechless now. So now I know what she mean when she's telling me the other day that she wanna attend morning on this Thursday which is tomorrow, she wanna change shift with me, and I'm supposed to be working evening shift tomorrow. Seriously, why can't she be specific with me when she says that she wanna attend morning tomorrow, and gonna change the shift with me? It's not like I'm going to say no, unless I really have something important to do on certain day. Other than that I have no reason to say no when my colleague really have something important to do or settle, it's fine we can change shift. Just please be specific(๑• . •๑) And tomorrow I'm not gonna spat out a single word. Even to customer, I'll minimize the usual speech, as my voice is gone because of my heavy flu. I can hardly even let out a single voice. Just word on blog that's gonna help me to let out what's inside my mind right now. And as usual, all that happened today, my madness and all, I'm not gonna bring it to tomorrow. Because tomorrow is a new start. Anything happened, will be forever a history. I'm not gonna let a history to drag me down. Not in a million years. We're people, and people were born to be forgiving anyone they're mad of, just time matters. And for me, I won't bring it to tomorrow as a reason of an argument. That's just plain stupid if I do so. ╭(°A°`)╮
I'm wearing a face mask today due to my heavy flu, when suddenly a kid freaked out to see that my mask has some blood on it, and she told me. That's when I realized my nose is bleeding.=_= I thought just a runny nose, did not realized that it was bleeding(๑• . •๑)
The last time I have flu was 3years ago where it lasts for around 3months. I guess this time might be same like last time. Just hope that it didn't affect my period like last time when I sick. It doesn't feel good to have 3 times of period in one month for 3months straight. I'm like a walking zombie→_→
I don't think I'm gonna have any breakfast today, I'm not hungry nor I'm full, just no appetite to take any food.
After a few days of night shift, finally, today I'm attending morning shift, I guess I'm gonna consult a doctor again regarding my endless flu. well, that's after my shift ends probably by 5pm. I just have to be at the clinic before they closed at 9pm.
it's the 6th day now that I'm not yet recover from my flu. I ran out of med. Oh well, doctor forbid me to drink cold or iced beverage, forbid me to had something sweets. I'm telling you I've followed the advised and finished my med. But my flu isn't showing any sign of disappearance. so now I'm having half of a small bottle of Belgium beer with my sister, with ice(ง •̀_•́)ง
